Metaphysical Musings

Personal Log Stardate: 47019.9

On a personal note, I’ve had a chance to get to know our counselor, Lt. Kubus, and I think she is a great addition to the crew; furthermore, she has already helped me personally. We’ve swapped Cardassian horror stories and she wins—hands down. But she has taken that suffering and instead of letting it fester into something ugly she has used it to develop compassion and empathy. We’ve set up a small Bajoran shrine in one of the empty conference rooms. I don’t think anyone would begrudge us Bajorans a little space to ourselves.

Having served among humans all of my career, I found them to be accepting of other’s views, but a little sterile in their religious beliefs. It’s been my observation that most humans shy away from the spiritual–it’s almost as if they feel that if they believed in a religious idea, it would weaken their all consuming worship of science. Don’t get me wrong, I believe in science and the wonders it can work, but there is something more to the universe. At times, I can really feel the Prophets’ hands guiding me, though I freely admit I haven’t always felt this way. In my youth, I didn’t believe in the Prophets at all. I really couldn’t conceive of gods who would allow the Cardassians to commit such atrocities against their chosen people. I still can’t explain it all, but I know that the Prophets are looking out for us and their goal is to help all Bajorans in this life and the next.

I’ve a few things in my spiritual journey that I would like to do that I think would make a significant impact on me. One is to have an Orb experience. I have known only a few people who have had one, but everyone of them has come away changed. I wonder if Lt. Kubus has had one. I’ll bring it up at our next session. Second, I want to meet the Emissary of the Prophets. It is strange that the Prophets would pick a non-Bajoran to be their liaison–but who I am to questions their choice. The tricky thing is that he is a Starfleet officer–Commander Benjamin Sisko, I hear he hasn’t really taken to his new title. All the same, I hope one of our missions takes us near DS9. It would be amazing.